Hell/Earth/Heaven

So much is going though my head.

I think of a desire I had as a young child, well, even into my adult life. To witness and be apart of miracles. I am sure you have heard or read about the miracles missionaries encounter. (I also know not all missionaries encounter miracles) Oh, how as a child I believed only missionaries were close enough to God to know and witness miracles. Oh, how I wanted to be a missionary. As I got older I realized it was not because those people were missionaries but because of their walk with God. That is what I craved.

Lets not forget God will finish the good work He started in me. LOL So the trials come and finally I realize what God is doing. At least I think I know. He is leading me to that place of close relationship with Him. I must totally with out a doubt trust in Him. Wow! Has that saying changed meaning for me over the years. And oh, the pain I have gone through because of me wanting what I want. LOL Yes, I want my desired to be as God's desires. I have prayed that and prayed that over the years. Yet my selfishness and wanting to have things easy on earth, earthly rewards. LOL God has been so patient with me. Giving me so much time to make those changes with out the pain. But I did not make the necessary changes then I waited for the pain and then decided to make the change. What a backward life I tend to live.

The pain, the heart ache, how could hell be worse than things on earth. At times that is so hard for me to grasp. The hard times, trial, troubles, are all nothing in comparison to hell. And the opposite can be just as hard to grasp. I remember as a child I believed there would be no food in Heaven. Oh, there are just to many good foods on earth what could possible be better. LOL Satan is always at work. If a person believes that hell on earth is what hell is really like, well why live for God. And if a person believes that there is Heaven on earth why sacrifice for eternal Heaven.