Trust and Commitment

Over the past few days I have been contemplating different aspects of trust and commitment. Many would say that we first learn to trust and about commitment from our parents, but it goes deeper than that. Why does it go wrong and how? We are spirit being-and we first learn from the womb. We may not know how to communicate what went on while we were still in the womb, but that is where we were created, by God, uniquely, individually, hand crafted with love by Love. We are all given a measure of trust and commitment in our DNA. It is there, now what we do with it. How we perceive the things that we are influenced by and by the experiences throughout our whole life, these things all started at conception. Think of this perception as our will. While searching the scriptures there is no perfect example of the perfect parenting to produce the perfect child. Oh, there are plenty of guidelines there to go by. In scripture there are imperfect parents with both perfect and imperfect children. There are perfect parents with both perfect and imperfect children. The end result truly lies in the will of the child. Now you might be asking what does that have to do with trust and commitment. Each person needs to know they cannot blame their family for how they turned out. We are all given DNA that is good in God's eyes; no one was created as a mistake. It all about how we perceive/ interrupt the experiences we have lived. Taking responsibility for where we are and who we are. God created each and every one of us to succeed - by His definition of success. We are all truly created equally. Embrace that in your life. When a person connects with the one who created them, when they start that relationship, as they walk that road of personal relationship with God the Father, God will as the person wills heal and draw out that which was not meant to be and to rise up the man or woman of God that He created them to be. How exciting to walk down the road of personal relationship with God. When we trust the one who created us, we then are able to trust others. This personal relationship with God our creator is the ultimate commitment. This relationship of trust and commitment allows us to trust others, how about being able to trust one self, all because of the personal relationship with God. The commitment that God initiated with us at the Cross was the start of something new for each and every one of us. That blood sacrifice has opened up the door to commitment with Him. This commitment on our end is all based on our will. Will we allow Him to speak to us, will we allow Him to heal our pains, will we cast all of our cares upon Him, will we leave those cares with Him, and will we surrender our every being? As we go through out each and every day God is leading us to situations that will require us to trust Him. How we respond decides the outcome for that situation. He gives us opportunity after opportunity to build our trust in the one that created us. And as we grow/build this trust muscle we will see and learn that trusting others hinges on how much we trust Him. If you find yourself not being able to trust people spend some time with God discovering the root and allowing Him to reveal to you how you can trust Him. He will and He does. Scripture is clear that God is our Protector - that is one of his names - JEHOVAH-SABAOTH. As we experience Jehovah Sabaoth, our trust in Him grows and we know no matter the situation that may befall me Jehovah Sabaoth is there taking care of His beloved. This is not to say that Jehovah Sabaoth will keep us from every trial of life, the New Testament is clear that trials will come our way. But knowing that what God allows is for His good, He already has a plan for your protection through any situation, He is our Savior, Our Healer, and there is nothing that is too big for Him. So trusting Him through the trials of life is how we trust those in our lives. He will protect. Our commitment with others can be only as deep as our trust in God. So where is your trust level today? Is it stronger than yesterday? Last month? Last year? The good news - it is never too late to start on the journey, God is a faithful God, the redeemer of Time. Blessings - Dawn

New Dawn

Wow! What a year?! It is official I am a free woman in so many ways. Last summer I found freedom in Jesus' blood. Praise God that His Blood is sufficient. His mercy is everlasting. God is a very faithful God.

I will start blogging some again. And continue on my journey. I still strive to be the woman God created me to be and to fully walk in the gifting God has given me. It is such a blessing know that through it all God never turned His back on me, never forsaken me. God/Jesus/Holy Spirit has walked with me every step of the way. Condemnation and shame are gone!!!!!!!!

Now where will the journey lead? I do know in 1995 God told me to stay single there was something He wanted me to do. Not sure if that door is still open, yet time will tell where He leadeth me. Dawn

Where am I?

I have not been very active lately. I have been doing a good job of staying away from the computer!!! We are not getting ready for another Wyoming trip. Lord willing Monday we will be loading up and arrive there before everything closes. Last time we went at this time of the year we arrived before everything closed. But we did not think about the stores closing early, so we went about doing some unloading, visiting, finally the girls were getting quit hungry. We headed back into town to find everything closed. We had to eat junk food from a gas station and thankful the next day we were able to eat at a relative's of my husbands. God provided. So who knows what this year's story will be.

These trips really are one of God's ways to teach me to trust Him. I was raised to have every detail planned before you leave the house. Right down to what I will wear every day, how much lotion, shampoo I will need, etc. Well when we go to WY, I know nothing until it happens. That is right I have no idea where we will sleep (yep, we take bedding-it just might be a tent and out house). Every trip is different and unique in it's own way. Oh, the stories...

One of my favorite. Two summer's ago-2007? I believe it was spring, where in the foothills of the mountains it still could get to be 40's or cooler. We were getting ready to head home, tired, lots of work yet to do to pack things up and the long drive afterward, with no place to stay and not enough cash to spend another night at a motel. Maybe it was 2006, anyway. We used bedding from the yard sale things to made beds. A tarp over our heads in case it rained, right there under the stars feeling the cool night breeze. I had a hard time falling asleep, I just keep staring at the stars. If someone told me my most romantic memory would be under those circumstances I would have laughed them off. Sleeping under God's stars and watching His power and beauty as I drifted off to sleep made all the unpleasant circumstances seem like nothing.

So as I prepare (mentally) for the upcoming trip I wonder what wonders does God have in store for this trip?

Have you Ever?

This is going around and thought it would be a easy blog post.
You BOLD the ones you HAVE done.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/world
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang/played a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea -Not at sea by on a Fourth of July, the most spectacular display I have ever seen.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch--plastic canvas
15. Adopted a child--I am adopted and I put a child up for adoption
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Gotten flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt--two squares
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone---x3
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating--need to edit here-I have killed fish, but have watched my family gut and prepare a pig and lots of fish, one of these days I believe I am going to be expected to gut my own fish
89. Saved someone’s life...by leading them to the Lord, and therefore having eternal life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Made a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Now if you do this let me know so I can visit yours, I have copied this from Apples of Gold.

Thanksgiving!

What a wonderful day, Thanksgiving! I believe this year was the best Thanksgiving I have ever enjoyed.

Now from the outside looking in one may really wonder why. It was sad having so many faces gone from the table. Yes, that brought tears.

But I stopped and started to count my blessings. And the list was very different than in years past. In the past my blessings had more to do with things and situations. This year I really did not care about any of the things I have. There was such a peace, calmness.

You see in past years I would be so stressed to get the meal done on time, everything perfect, wanting the food to all be done at one time etc. What a mess. This year I, no we (our 7 yr. old enjoyed cooking right alone side me) took things one dish at a time, it was such a joy and so peaceful.

In the evening as I deboned the turkey, I sat there wondering why this year was so different and such a wonderful different. I discovered how my relationship with Jesus has changed so much inside. I now have peace-true peace. And knowing where true hope lies. That raging rush of tense stress and perfection that can never be is gone. I realize I will never reach perfection, I am human.

True salvation and a true realization of who God really is. Knowing that the debt I can never pay has been paid. Knowing that who I am, is in Jesus Christ. I have known that-head knowledge. Praise God it has come to heart knowledge. God has been so faithful to keep working with me, He has never given up on me. Teaching me to trust believe on my Lord Jesus Christ. And knowing that my Hope lies in Jesus' return.

God has given me such wonderful spiritual blessings. What more could I want. Dawn

Why do people go to counseling?

Why do people want counseling? The world is looking for someone to say what they are doing is ok/ not sin. Most issues mentally/physically are rooted in sin. (I want to remove the most- yet I must remember Job, so I cannot). It is amazing how sick a person can make themselves when out of a right relationship with God.

What does the Bible tell us to do? Cast all our cares upon Jesus? Carry everything to the Lord. In all things with prayer and supplication. Thanksgiving unto the Lord.

I see scripture pointing man to God in the time of help, need, question. Did not God make me? Did not God know all things as I was in my mother's womb? Does not God know all things?

I know many people out there believe in Biblical Counseling. As does a radio show I like to listen to Return to the Word. I personally do not know anyone who has tried Biblical Counseling and had positive results. I do believe Return to the Word has seen some counseling do good. I also believe they believe in pointing the person to Christ/God for answers.


There have been times I have wanted to just run to someone, tell them my problem(s) so they can help me 'work' through them. God is so wonderful. God has shown me how and why this is the wrong way of doing things.

1. This is one way rumors start. Remember the only one who can be trusted 100% all the time is God. And what about those prayer requests we hear in church? So many times they really are just a form a gossip in the name of a prayer request. There are so many verses in Proverbs regarding the words/mouth. Many refer to talking to much is the same as a fool. Not a comforting thought. Yet, counselor's encourage talking things out. Many times we need to spend more time in the Scripture and in prayer.
2. God is my counselor. Isaiah 9:6 With God as my counselor I am getting truly what I need to hear. Gods word-The Holy Bible is the best counseling a person can receive.
3. My Jehovah azar (The Lord my Helper-Psalm 30:10). Learning to allow God be the one helping me has helped to learn patience. I person running from place to place looking for answers is not a very patient person, nor one at peace.
4. Is not God El Qana (The Jealous God-Exodus 34:14)? God has shown me that He wants to be my all in all, my Everything. Why should I be looking to others (who can and will fail me) for my answers in life.
5. And Elohim Yakol (The God who is Able-Daniel 3:17). This has been an interesting lesson as God revealed himself to me as being Able. Don't most who are raised in the 'church' taught that God has power and is able. Yet how many of us truly believe this? I remember reading and praying 2 Ephesians prayers (Eph. 1:15-31 and Eph. 3:17-21) many times a day for a couple months. Meditating and asking God to show me what the words truly meant. Ephesians 3:20 "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us," God took the time necessary to show me just how able He is of taking care of me.
6. Jehovah-Jireh (The Lord will Provide-Genesis 22:14) This was specifically a hard lesson. As American's in a prosperous nation we do not have much in the way of a true need. God had to take us as a family through some financial need. I was taught all my life, if you follow this such and such a plan you will have no needs. Fine and true. But it never taught me to rely on God as my provider.
7. Rumn Ro'sh (The One who lifts my head Psalm 3:3) The lesson learning here has gone a bit with the Jehovah-Jireh lesson. Learning that every breath I take is of God. I will only take my next breath if God allows it. God is the One who keeps me up right. Not by any strength of my own. Remember the song Read your Bible pray every day and you will grow grow grow. I can think back to the times I experimented with this. Seeing just how many days I could go without and how things went. It really is true on must be in the Word of God daily and in consent prayer.
8. Olam Zerowa (The Everlasting Arms- Deuteronomy 33:26-29) This has been a favorite. God has shown me how He loves me so much-His arms are there to care and hold me. God is truly amazing.
9. Cether (My Hiding Place-Psalm 32:7) I have so enjoyed being able to hide in my God, such security. Psalms 91 was the scripture God used to help me understand how I can hide in Him, His protection. I am not even talking about need for physical protection. We all have times in our lives that we need/want our emotions to be protected. What great freedom knowing that God can and will take care of my emotional protection.
10. Chyahlooth (My Strength-Psalm 22:19) Learning to allow God to be my strength in the time of need has been quit a struggle. Having been raised as a liberal woman. Not doing things in my power/strength can be quit a battle with the Lord.

So why does man go to man for answers/help mostly they I want a human to tell them the way of the world is ok and or want someone to take pity, feel sorry for me. You know looking for justification for their ways. What we really need to do is learn to rely 100% upon God first. Give God time. It just might happen to be that God wants us to learn to wait upon Him.

I also want to add, after God, we as wives are to go to our husbands to learn, ask questions. And whom we as wives talk to after that needs to be in agreement with our husbands-they are our head. Dawn

Me a Rib?

Oh, if we were talking about being a Famous Daves rib. I could pass, plumb, plenty of fat for flavor. But no. The next Wife's Biblical submission lesson is about the Wife being the Husband's rib.

What a responsibility. One I must say up front I have failed at it 100%. Well in the beginning I did better, maybe 25%. I do not know only God and my husband could really say. I do know how it all spiraled down.

I trust no man. I was going to go into great detail how I have been hurt by men since conception. But I must face the truth I run men off. It is called self preservation. If I chase them off it is easier to deal with than if they just leave. Ohhhh, there is that word again (root word).

Selfishness.

Yep! That is what started it all. So other than to say. Read the lessons. Heed the instruction. Read this list of 10 ways to lose your domestic happiness. And to any woman that loves to talk (are you laughing because I am) say nothing to your husband that you have not prayed in depth about. I mean it. Take it from a woman who has spent more time being injurious to my husband than what God meant. You may need to keep your mouth shut for days. I believe the scripture is, better to live on the house top than with a __________ wife. (Purposely left empty). Dawn